Enforced time out…

It’s interesting now that we are back after our enforced rest…I found I was quite restless and wanted to keep working on my university course.

I know that Adam had not purposely opened up the next modules  -but I found myself wanting to ‘get on with my learning’ and working on the ‘next thing!’

I took time out to start reading the text Man’s Search for Meaning by Victor Krankl, which is really thought provoking.  It really has me questioning my meaning for my life?  Especially as I’ve now got a few ‘ailment’s’. These are not for me to suffer with – but to get on with life and not let them become who I am. They WILL NOT define me.  I am more than the person with arthritis.  I am ME!

 

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Always questioning myself and learning in the process

I’ve been debating for the last week (in my mind) whether to go in and update the website I created for Assignment 2. There are a number of pages that I’d like to have updated and have ideas on how I could improve.

I was thinking of contacting Adam, our lecturer. But then I thought part of my learning is to recognise that when it comes time to hand in a piece of work…then it is to hand in and not to keep updating and working on it.

Yes I could improve it…but then having submitted it I can then reflect – as part of my personal learning space how I could improve it and do better, next time!

 

I made it…

Wow, I made it…Assignment Two has been a roller coaster of emotions…

But I have submitted it!!!!

Could I have done better? Yes.

Did I try my hardest? Absolutely

Am I proud of what I submitted?  Yes and mostly

Am I relieved? Yes – I can now spend time with my family again

Did I learn new things?  I created a PLN, Developed a website, have become proficient at Twitter, starting learning about Pinterest…and lots more

Have  I learnt about myself?  Yes, I am in the Liminal State a lot of the time. I am persistent, resilient, tenacious, inquisitive, and am quite critical of myself!

Am I exhausted? Yes

 

 

Thanks Adam

Today is a day to reflect and say thanks Adam.

I was struggling early in the piece with the concept of the personal learning space. I just didn’t get how I could incorporate what I was learning about personal learning sapces into my assignment.

I couldn’t visualise how personal learning spaces could look.

I remember Adam saying to me to just leave working on the Personal Learning Space and come back to it at the end! Which is what I’ve done.

I know I could add a lot more to the resources page and I’m sure it is not set out easily…but it’s what I’ve done and I’ve got to be satisfied with it. Plus the fact is’s just after 5pm and I’ve got 7 hours to go. And out of that I’ve probably only got 4 hours of productive time!!!

So to myself – the self -talk is…”Get on with it! And don’t fuss about the pretty stuff”

Thank you Adam 🙂

 

 

The Liminal learning space

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 This is a post from instagram that really resonates with me.  “I can’t go on, I’ll go on.” To me it depicts really nicely the Liminal state I’ve been learning about.  I feel at times that I can’t go on and just don’t get it, but then I plough through, reach out, talk to others and continue.
This assignment has challenged me, exhausted me, deflated me, and at times left me feeling exhilarated and loving the whole concept of learning.  
The journey of learning is the process of getting there, no-one will judge me at the end.  It is where I land that matters to me and that I’m moving on to a new and different place. 
I found this poster on the twitter which I disagree with 
liminal-space especially when it says ‘no real progress can be made in this space and place’. Yes I agree that whilst you are in it, it feels you are not making progress but as you go through it – I feel the exact opposite! By being in this space and acknowledging it, progress is made through the journey and the state of being that you are in.

Lost in exploring

Tonight I’m finding myself getting lost in exploring classrooms on the internet.

I’m on an adventure, similar to when I used to travel a lot overseas.  I start out with sort of a destination in mind, in this case my Assignment. But along the way I take a turn and explore a site or a word and it leads me to a world that opens up new possibilities, ideas and learning.

When we go on holidays we sometimes decide to go exploring, to go left instead of right and end up on a journey that opens our eyes to beauty and wonder. Of course I’m not on a holiday and I do have a destination to get to – Sunday night 11.59pm.  But I figured whilst I’m on my journey I might as well enjoy the ride! As long as I don’t diverge too far off track!!!

 

The closer I get the further away I am….

I know that this sounds like an oxymoron but it is really how I feel.  The closer the date for the deadline for my Assignment – the further away I feel that I am from completing it.

I am sure I am overthinking it…I have way too much time on the Group, Collaborative and Cooperative learning spaces…and I know I’ve still got to work on the Classroom, Beyond the Classroom and the Liminal…and then to go back to the Personal!

I feel like I am ineffectual in my learning. I know I place high expectations on myself!

I was thinking yesterday back to when I first enrolled in this course and was talking to one of the lecturer’s who at the time said that I need to enjoy myself and not be all consumed by the study. I need to balance my university studies with my family, home, friends and work.  Right now the pendulum is heavily weighed towards the study and I’m neglecting my health and my family. I’m exhausted and know that I just need to keep going.

I have a new job and that is taking lots of my focus (as it should)…I have some travel coming up with work and next term we have lots of commitments already with school, work and family.  I know that I need to take the time out and not say yes to everything. By trying to do so much I’m not doing a good job at anything!

I feel like this PLN is my diary and my way of expressing how I feel. I know that this is not really what it is meant to be…but it is a way to capture how I feel.

I really don’t know how I’m going to get there for Sunday night 11.59pm in handing in my assignment.

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References:

Postermywall (2016). Aaron M, Panic Now and Freak out,  Postermywall: http://www.postermywall.com/index.php/posterbuilder/template/19090572c24f2f1d3f16a4e9d462808b#.V-SMOtJf3IU

 

eCoP sharing learnings

I’m working on the Group, Collaborative and Cooperative learning spaces page for my website.

I’m finding I’m switching between the pages to try and complete it on time.

Tonight I’m going back through the forum posts for week 5 to refresh my learning and understanding of what these learning spaces are about.

I think it would be a lot easier being a teacher in the classroom as I’m completing this assignment as I could reflect on my day to day teaching experiences and also be able to ‘apply’ my learnings each week as I progress through this unit.

Ahhh, this is what it’s all about….

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Okay, it’s week 8 and the assignment is due on Sunday night.

I have just discovered the most amazing thing, that I love learning!!!

I am soooo tired as I’ve been working at this assignment until 1.30am most days (okay, yes admittedly I don’t get cracking until 9pm!!)

I kept thinking that my assignment as an eBook just wasn’t working.  I had it in my head that content is king.  If you have the content right you can format it anyway you like!

True – ah False..well not for me anyway!

lighbulb  My lightbulb moment came, over time…it was brewing! I kept thinking that the structure of my eBook was unorganised and I kept adding links to go out to other spaces, which was getting clunky!

Tonight I decided to take the plunge and create a website!!! Applause please…

And I discovered that it is fun to do!!  I was going to edit a website I’d created a couple of years ago using Weebly, as my thinking was the structure was already there. With encouragement from my family I decided to create a website in WordPress as my Blog is in WordPress.

It is not flash – but I can add to it as I go…

Now I’m only thinking – why couldn’t I have thought of this last week!!!!

Hmmm – Adam I can almost see you smiling and hear you say…just give it a go…You said to me to have fun with it.  The last two weeks have not been fun..BUT now they are…I just need to have more days in the week to now PLAY….

I love learning – thanks Adam 🙂

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